Thoughts

Sometimes I feel like I'm a little bit of a one tracked mind. Whatever it is I am doing or thinking-- all of my energy is focused on that one thing. I pretend like I can check my email during class and pay attention to both. False. Even though I feel like I am multitasking... I'm really not. All of my brain power is focused on one thing at a time.

This is why I often get called "Media Maddie" by my husband.

Because if I am texting someone back-- then I am focused on texting that person back! I try to pretend that I can multi task. But I really can't.

The past few months my mind has been focused on an idea. It's a beautiful idea. An idea worth my thoughts and focus.

It seems that everything in my life revolves around my idea. It revolves around what the future has in store for me and my idea.

But today I read this.

And I just cried.

Am I even looking around at how blessed I am?

I am married to a boy who will do anything and everything just to make me smile. And yet I break his heart by crying to him about all the things I want and don't have-- instead of thanking him for everything he has done for me.

My ideas about what I want for my future will pan out how they are supposed to. I have no doubt that I will look back in a few years and see the hand of God involved in every part of my small life.

So today, tomorrow, and the next days, I am going to try and remember all that I have.

Because I really have never been so happy. And why should I focus all of my energy on my future? Life is so good right now.

That's all.